Moving Mountain

Why is moving on that tough? Can somebody pls explicate this to me? Why do I have to see the person who brings me heartache all over again? They say everything ensues for a reason, right? So, seeing him out of the blue could mean, what?

I'll be hypocrite if I would say that I'm not in high spirits seeing him around, the fact is I truly am, whenever he is right next to me. But somehow I feel a bit gauche about it.

We never get to talk to each other nowadays and it hurts a lot when he's there right in front of me and it seems like he's not happy seeing me around.

However, the same old feelings are coming back whenever I see him. Darn! I'm such a fool because I like him that much.

:(

Today Conversation with "J"

I won't make the story long...

Well he keeps on bugging me why I liked him, me on the otherhand cannot explain the reason behind it. Argh! I don't know naman talaga! It wasn't about physical attraction and I'm very sure of it, since "hindi pa kami nagkikita personally". *sigh* If I do have the answers to his question sasagutin ko naman eh. I mean there's nothing to hide naman. Basta all I know I'm happy talking to him and my friends are my witness, because they can tell that I'm really happy.

*sigh Sigh sigh* Bakit nga kaya?

He finds it funny, because I LIKED him so fast... erRR ano magagawa ko eh yun yung feeling ko eh!

On our conversation he also asked me if ever I had my heart broken? well, napaisip tuloy ako... When do you say that your heart broken? When was the last time somebody broke my heart? Is it really broken? For me kasi heart broken is something like the person you like doesn't like you the way you liked him/her, wherein you feel rejected etc... That was broken hearted for me. Hmm the last guy who broke my heart was "C"... I really felt bad about it, but I have to move on and even though things doesn't work up the way I wanted it to be, I'm still happy because at least nagtagpo ang aming landas!!! haha tagalog na tagalog. I never regret knowing him.

As for "J", your saying that you don't fall easily even if you like the girl right? Well, does it mean you sort of like me but not attached? Don't worry I'm not asking you to fall for me anyway... Lets just enjoy whatever there is for us, right? That's something I've learned from my past experience, enjoy the next good thing! And if you don't like me, just say it so ok? I'll rather hear the truth than a lie. (as if naman he's reading this eh noh? haha)

^_^

A Gracious Day!

First and simplest reason why I find this day gracious kasi nagising pa ako from a very deep sleep, which means God has given me another chance to live.

Second....

>>> All my loved ones are all safe...

Third....

>>> It was my daily routine to check my emails and log in to my yahoo messenger and check who among my friends are online. I was surprised that my good friend "LOLO J" was online. That wasn't his real name of course its just my alias for him, para naman mysterious ang dating. Haha So, we chat for a couple of minutes and then I log out na since I still have my duty and I have to leave the house at 5:30am. Talking to "Lolo J" brightens my day, yeah seriously! Dunno why, but I guess it just proves that I really like him, though we haven't seen each other in person. Could it be possible? Well, I guess it is possible in my case. haha It's weird how I wish he likes me too or at least misses my presence. LOL

Fourth...

>>> I've seen once again my groupmates who are very dear to me. I misses them a lot since we haven't seen each other for 3 weeks. So I'm glad kasi sama-sama na naman kami for this rotation. Kumpleto na naman ang "Group 1 celebs!" naks!!!

Fifth...

>>> "Mr. C" was our built-in Clinical Instructor!!! that's not his real name, I won't publish it here. Of course my groupmates knows him, so ok na yun na sila lang nag nakaka-alam. Not unless mapilit kayo at pilitin niyo ako na sabihin sa inyo kung sino si "Mr. C" haha. So ayun, I'm so happy kasi I had a crush on him before, kaso that time he wasn't handling us but now he was! So nagulat ako seeing him! haha with this, sakto my NSD so ako yung assist, and my gosh another humiliating moment for me, he was asking "sino yung assist" and my friend "L" answered " si kylie po" and medyo tinulak niya ako ng kaunti and I said " ako po Sir"... and then sabi ni "Mr. C", "name?" ako naman parang nabingi at hindi ko naintindihan yung sinabi niya and inulit niya ulit yung tanong niya sabi niya " name mo? nakalimutan mo na?" (parang natatawa siya) arghhh! tapos dun lang ako natauhan na he was asking my name kasi nga naman he's the one grading us! arghhh so sinabi ko name ko tapos I gigled pero pa-cute na gigle! hahaha (LANDI) so basta ayun na he was beside me and his hands are on my shoulder tapos pushing me papunta sa sterile area. NAKS! KILIG NA KILIG ako! shocks! haha kay tagal kong hinintay ang oras na yun! LOL so ayun! During the NSD, he also went beside me pero he was checking the contraction of the uterus, basta ang mahalaga andun siya sa tabi ko! haha tapos after the NSD, so the usual thing > "cleaning time". So since I was the assist, I have to wash the instruments at the back. So sabi ni Mr. C, "Pikihugasan na lang yung mga instruments dun sa may Mumu".... eh since I'm scared of ghosts sabi ko "SIR NAMAN!" haha tapos natawa siya sabi niya "sige basta pag may nakita ka or something takbo ka na lang" and then he giggle. Bibiruin ko sana eh, sasabihin ko sana "samahan niyo naman ako", kaso hindi ko nasabi kasi duh PROFESSIONAL STUDENT NURSE ako! *wink*. So I went at the back to wash the instruments, seriously natatakot ako but I pretend that I'm matapang! hehe I was really praying while washing the instruments para hindi magpakita kung ano man ang meron dun. Tapos a little later Mr. C checked on me for awhile kung kamusta na ang ginagawa ko. And siyempre medyo nagtanong ako "Sir san po ito ilalagay after" haha para medyo tumagal siya dun. haha kanya kanyang deskarte lang yan as they say! *wink*.

Pero may napansin ako ah, feeling ko kasi tinitignan niya ako when I went to the station to copy the diagnosis, ewan ko feeling ko lang naman un. Nyay! KILIG to the BONES!



So that's the 5 reasons why this day is very GRACIOUS!!!

Pero at the end of the day ang nasa isip ko pa din si "Lolo J", I can't explain much about how I feel for him pero basta siya yung naiisip ko eh. Haha hmmm baka he was thinking of me too. LOL

Some facts lang before I end this up:

"Girls have innumerable CRUSHES but their hearts only belong to ONE guy..."

& "Guys may be flirting all day but beore they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly love about..."

^_^

Argh!!!

I just wanted to share something. How come some guys flirts a lot even though they already have a girlfriend. It pisses me off!!!

If he thinks na sasakyan ko yung mga FLIRTING strategies niya! Excuse me!!! Sorry siya! Hindi na ko patay na patay sa kanya! Kaasar! ASSUMING ah!

By the way I'm not talking about "chinito", I'm talking about "my friendly neighbor" (Kilala niyo na ba?)

Mantra's

It's almost 1 in the morning here, and yet I still couldn't get myself to sleep. I'm so tired from the walking here and there but I don't feel sleepy at all. I just found myself opening the YouTube and searching for songs and then suddenly I'm surprised that I was typing in the search box "mantra/s".

My friend Mara used this topic for her teaching demo on our Strategy class last semester, and we even do the "mantra" thing after the lecture. But some of my classmates didn't took the activity seriously that's why I was influenced and I'm sort of giggling while doing it in class. So here comes Johnny, a good friend of mine, who introduced the chanting thing. I remember when we watched together a YouTube mantra through yahoo chat, well this time I took the "mantra" thing more seriously and the feeling doing the mantra is gives me like a goose bumps yet relaxing your mind.

And I guess that's the reason why I'm doing the "mantra" thing now. I need to relax my mind from all the stresses. I need peace of mind at least before going to sleep so that I would have a very pleasant dreams.

Well, I'm gonna continue the chanting thing for a couple of minutes and then I'll go straight to bed na.

So yeah! goodMornYt!

zZz

New Hope...

Wow! Super nabuhayan ako ng loob when I get to talk to Ate Gigi through facebook. She was a former flight attendant, so I asked her a few questions that I have in mind about her job before.

If you guys are not aware, I wanted to take up Tourism before but because of some reasons I ended up in Nursing. I don't have regrets naman in tooking up Nursing, I can still be a flight nurse naman eh since madaming landing jobs ang Nursing.

The very basic reason why I wanted to be a flight attendant before is that I wanted to travel in different places around the globe.

My dreams of becoming a flight attendant faded when some people here are telling me that "dapat your eye vision is normal" etc. I lost hope of becoming one because my eye vision is not normal na, its not 20-20! I used to wore an eye glasses when I was in first year high school but some people at school thinks I'm a genius so I never wore that eye glasses again kahit I'm having a hard time reading na. Haha I just make sure na I get to seat in front of the class para I won't have a hard time when it comes to lecture.

So back to Ate Gigi, I asked her.... "Ate Gigi, is it true na dapat malinaw mata mo kapag flight attendant ka?" and she told me na its not necessary naman daw, you could wear contact lenses naman. And boom! a sudden rush of blood over me! I still have a chance!!! I super wanted to jump out of happiness nung nalaman ko yun.

Because of that I have made a new plan for my future. Haha! After I graduate next year and pass the local board, I will took up the NCLEX and whatever exams I needed to take to be an RN. And then I will specialized as an Operating Room Nurse or Dialysis Nurse, and then I have to take an IV training. And then I'm going to submit whatever requirements sa mga airlines. And from then on, kung ano unang dumating na job for me I will grab it agad. If unang dumating yung flight attendant I will work for 5 years siguro. I think sa 5 years na yun I would be able to travel in different places na with pay pa! haha Wag lang babagsak yung plane! hehehe And after 5 years I'm going to stick to nursing for the rest of my life. Hehe But just in case mauna yung Nursing Career ko, hmm oh well I have to stick to it forever na.

Actually, in whatever angle ko tignan mas malaki ang salary sa Nursing career ko. Pero kasi happiness naman is not about the money your earning eh. It's about reaching your goals in life. Yeah! yun ay para sa akin, so walang kokontra! hehe

:)

Group 1 Gala

Yesterday, the weather was not really good. It was raining so hard. But the rain won't stop us from eating Shabu-Shabu! arghhh So we took a cab up to Shangrila, by the way I was with my group 1B fellas. Upon reaching Shang, we hurriedly go to the Shabu-Shabu stall since we were super hungry, because we only had a few slices of cake for lunch.

We don't talk much while eating, as they said " galit-galit muna". Kasi gutom na nga kami! So we all wanted to finish eating first before "chikahan" in order to regain energy. But since we are all sort of cam whore, we can't stop ourselves from taking some pics while eating our cute shabu-shabu. We also ate siomai after, for drinks, Mean, Val and I had iced tea, while Mae and Correa had coconut shake (eww, I wonder what does it tastes).

After we ate, we went in a karaoke room at Quantum. Yep! It's so kewl! We had a video while singing. I actually uploaded it at youtube, but then I won't post it in public since we were wearing our uniforms and we'll be dead if the faculty sees that. Actually, we were not allowed to post any pics nor video of ours wearing our uniforms. So we really are dead meat if they see that video, it's not nude hahaha but we were wearing our uniform. Just in case you guys wanna see it, just send me a message. *wink

Lemme continue my story...

So we sang... and then I went out of the glass room to look for a song. And I was surprised when a guy seats beside me. So I took a look at him using my peripheral vision. haha! yeah! I'm surprised that this guy is a "HEY". Just in case you guys was not familiar of that lingo of ours, "HEY" means "CUTE/HOTTie guy". So I went inside the room again and I told them, "take a look at that guy, what do you think?" and they said "a HEY" so I told them to take a picture of us haha while seating outside, so the second time I went out I pretend I was looking for a song again. haHa yAy! I hope he doesn't noticed what were planning.

And we all like going super hyper again seeing a 'HEY' around the corner. Haha! He is cute but I think he's old, so whatever! I like somebody else anyway he's older than me too but I much like him like super likey him, we don't have pictures together though, because he's so far like the stars from up above. haha

So back to Quantum, after 12 songs we decided to go back home since we're all tired and wasted. Actually, we just wanted to dine out and celebrate because the 1st rotation for the summer duty is over. And you know for another "bonding time". Next time we'll go play billiards, of course not in our uniforms.

till next time folks!

For One More Day

I finally finished reading "For One More Day" by Mitch Albom, the guy who wrote the famous book "Tuesdays With Morrie".

Upon reading the book I just find myself crying, because I am so much affected of the story. It was pretty much like the life of my brother, but not the suicidal part of course!

Well I don't have to narrate the story because it's pretty long.

I just want to write something about my realizations after reading that book.

[+] It was true that we can see the purest love in our mother's eye.

[+] You have to finish college first before anything else. Or in other words "Study first".

[+] Fame is just temporary, so don't be so much attached to it.

[+] Never take for granted your Family.

[+] Regrets is somehow feeling helpless.

[+] You cannot change back the time so make the most out of it. Live, Laugh, Love!

[+] Wait for your time, never rush! death will come to you. Don't be so excited!

[+] Don't drink too much nor smoke, because it kills you slowly.

[+] When death is close to you, you will see your dead relatives and they sort of "SUNDO" you.

[+] When you've done wrong in your past, remember that there's always a room for a change. So find a room for a change and correct whatever you've done wrong.

hmmm so that's all folks...