Before I decided to run for student council election, I do have so many friends. But then the moment I decided to run, many of them are gone and only a few of my friends stayed with me until the final day of the election. At first I was really disappointed to them, because they never tried to listen to my side, they've only heard the other side of the story. Eventually, I've realized I never had the feeling of regrets for deciding to run because I now knew who my true friends are and who are not.
Seriously, the whole thing was really an impulsive decision. Right before I knew it I was submitting my certificate of candidacy and then my name was written on the posters.
Before things eventually falls into place, I've prepared myself for whatever the outcome will be. I've much prepared myself for losing to my opponent. It's not being a pessimist; I was just basing things on the fact that my standing/our group standing is 40-60, 40% chance of winning and 60% chance of losing.
So the way I calculated things, we lose. But then seriously I never felt bad about losing. I don't know it's really weird huh?! Perhaps I've prepared myself so much to this kind of end result. I was just a bit disappointed coz none of my party mates made it to the list. And I quite blame myself for this because I didn't put much effort for campaigning. So when I told them about the final counting of votes, I made sure that they are fine and still happy about the whole experience. And good thing I've also prepared them for this. I wouldn't forget the first meeting I had with them, I told them "guys, keep in mind it doesn't matter if we win or not… just enjoy and value the whole experience because none of this will happen the same way again." It's true, if I'm not mistaken this is the first Student Council Election in our school which is very controversial.
If people would ask me about my experience regarding the election… the honest answers I can give to you are:
- I'm glad, because in my last year of college life I've experienced how to campaign, how to speak in front and convince the people to vote for you, I've experienced how hard it is to think of something creative for your slogans and posters, and most especially I've set aside the introverted side of me and transformed myself into an extrovert type. And somehow, I've had reach out into some of my fellow student's heart.
- I always have a good image from everyone around me, but then when I run for the SC, I've experienced the very worse, that there is a point where people are trying to put you down by talking shit about you which is not really true. They will try to tear you up into pieces. They will not see your good side but focuses on the bad, if they can't find one they will make one just to crash you. Some of them are the people you thought are friends and some are people who doesn't really know you at all. At first, I almost want to give up and wish things were back into normal. But thanks to the people who gave me strength and never believed in any of those stupid lies. They told me not to give up, and for once I should stand for something which I thought was right.
- Even though I lose this battle, I've gained new special friends. They are the people which I never expected to be on my side in times like this. And I'm really happy and blessed for knowing them.
- I've also seen the good and bad side of politics. And I've applied what I have learned from my politics class.
- And to top it all, despite of what had happened, at the end of the day I've become a much better person. And become stronger more than I ever thought I could be.
Seriously, I never really cried over the result of the tallying I don't know why… perhaps it was not worth it to cry over something like that. I'm just so touched with all those people who felt bad about the result, they also show their concerns over my feelings towards it. But like what I've said I'm not lying that I'm fine. I kept telling them "don't be sad about it, kasi baka mahawa ako niyan." J
In the game of life, it is true that it is in the human nature to be eager to win every challenge. But then losing is also winning the greatest lesson of all. You become much better the next time you get into the battlefield of life, right before you knew it.
Once again, I would like to thank all those people who have stayed there for me. Thanks for never stop believing!
Special thanks to:
- My Group 1 family: this is not the end of our endeavors, there are yet more to come. I'm just glad that no matter what we are still bonded.
- To Ate Tin, Ate Rox, Lily, & Margaux: thank you for everything! I'm blessed for knowing you guys! Thank you for letting me in into your circle of friends.
- To some of my ASK family: Thank you because despite of what had happened you guys use your personal judgment on things. Thank you because you have seen the "leader" side of me, you know who you are.
- My buddies: John, Gumz, and Adik thanks you for your advices!
- To my bestfriend & sister Mean: thank you for always listening to me actively and giving out the best of your advice!
- And lastly, thanks to my mama for respecting and supporting my decision to run for the SC presidency. I know you doesn't want me to but you let me experienced it. Thank you for listening to me. I love you mama!
Actually, the word thank you is not enough to show how much thankful and blessed I am to this people.
Oh well, till here! Back to regular class na! Hehe
