Future Plans

College days is finally over, now what? I'm about to take the licensure exam in just a few days from now. And I'm not sure what will be the result of it. Will I be a Registered Nurse before the end of the third quarter of the year? Nobody knows, but with God at my side I'm sure I can make it. Anyway, whatever the result of it I will still settle on my plans. Since my family will not be able to send me to med school nor the graduate school for my Master's degree, I have to start searching for a job, so that I could start helping out my family to pay our debts. Yep, you've heard that right!

So here's my Plan A, I will submit an application for a job as flight nurse/attendant or cruise ship attendant/med personnel (I'm not sure on what they call that job). And If I'm blessed enough to received my license, I will enter a training school for my profession as a nurse while waiting for the result of my job haunting thing. I will go for IV training and I will refresh my NC-CLEX training on BLS & ACLS and I'm also planning to complete DR cases so that I could also be a Registered Midwife. I'm sure I can comply with all of this in just a short period of time. If I get hired, that's GOOD! And if I won't be able to make it on my plan A, I have no choice but to go with my Plan B, and that is to work as a Nurse. Since I'm really interested in Psychiatric Nursing, I will job haunt inside the National Center for Mental Health, and at the same time I will try to find a way in which I can be hired directly as an OR nurse. And I'm also planning to acquire a training on Dialysis, since I'm also interested to be a Dialysis nurse. If I made it, I will have to work here for 2 years to gain experience before leaving the country. If I will not make it I'll stick with my Plan C, and that's to work as a call center agent! While applying on a modeling agency! Hahaha! KAMON!!! Who knows I might be discovered! LOLz *DREAMING* I still have my Plan D, whether I pass or not on the Licensure exam I will have to work on my Canadian & US papers so that if luck is in my side I can go there and come across a good paying job. And while waiting for that paper, I will take up a foreign language class, specifically in Spanish, Mandarin, French and Japanese. I just need to learn the basics! ^_^

So that's my plans A to D! That's my plan so far, and it's still prior to change! Since we all know that most of the time, things usually not go according to our plans but according to God's plan for us!

So anyway here's my goal, I want to settle first all my family's debt, it's not that big anyway so I'm positive I can pay that in a year or two, I just really have to work hard. And then I can now save up money for a house and a car of my own! Since I was a kid well not totally a KID, hmm I always wanted to have a vacation house at Tagaytay or anywhere near a coast at La Union or Pangasinan (part of it was influenced by my mom), and I also want to have a condo unit at The Fort. If I'm lucky enough I would love to have a pent house. And last, I want to have my dream house. So yeah I want 3 different properties in different location. But I still have no idea where my dream house will be. However, since it's a glass house I think it would be nice if it's on top of a mountain. And when it comes to automobile, I would still love to have a Suzuki Swift, Mazda, and a Ford Expedition. I will perhaps only buy the latest car by that time if I would be able to get any of those three since those were the first 3 cars that I wanted. My fondness of cars was influenced by my brother who loves automobiles. And of course, it is not ideal to work forever, so yeah I will also save up enough money to start a small business. And the business thing was influenced by my sister, who is engaged into the business world. And my keenness for boys is influenced by my father, the chick boy! Wahahaha just kidding! I also wanted to help out my niece and nephews in their school stuff, since I owe my success to my Ate & Kuya! So it's like payback time to those people who've done a lot of sacrifices for me. Seriously, I want my Ate to manage whatever business I will have in the future. And I will buy my brother whatever car he wanted, and for Toppe (my step brother) I will help him out to change his views in life I will help him out to get a good job, and I will buy Papa the jeepney that he wanted since then, and for Mama, I want to take care of her and share every success I will have. I will let my mom experience the life she doesn't had before because she had to sacrifice a lot for us/me. And I don't know how long my mom's life will be so I have to work so hard so that I could give her that life as soon as possible. And if I become really successful, I wanted to help out those people who need a financial assistance for their health or education. Coz, I think my success will be more fruitful enough if I get to share it.

And my most important goal is to find my TRUE HAPPINESS! I'm still uncertain where and when to find it, but I just hope it will find its way to me.

And I'm also praying that I would be able to achieve all my goals before my life here on earth end up.

FOCUS

The licensure exam is fast-approaching, and here I am I can't still find myself committed into it. I'm so bothered with my family's problem. And I want those to be settled first before I start reviewing for the exam. Whenever I felt like giving up and losing my hopes up, I always find myself saying "God will make a way, if there seems to be no way." I just have to Trust His plan. ^_^ I just hope that 60 days will be more than enough for me to regain my energy to focus for the licensure exam.

Another Ordinary Sunday

I'm so bored! Here I am in front of my laptop while all my classmates are reviewing for the upcoming Nurse Licensure Exam. Perhaps you're all wondering why I wasn't there? I'm RESTING! Because I'm not feeling well, in short I'm SICK. And seriously, I don't feel like studying for now. I mean HELLO!!!! I've just finished SCHOOL and now WHAT? STUDY again? OH COME ON!!! Give me a BREAK!!! If I push myself too much I might end up learning nothing. Because its so hard to learn if your not in the mood to do so. Also, I'm going to review outside the school premise, it will start probably next week and from then on I have enough energy to STUDY all those tedious notes. And besides I will not DIE if I didn't attend our review class at school, but rather I will DIE if I do so. Why? Because my brain cells will be damage rapidly! ^_^ and I really don't have the energy, coz I'm sick!

Anyway, you know what it's so weird because I can't help but think of him! You might all be wondering who am I pertaining ayt? Well, I won't tell it publicly leave me a message if you're curious! LOLz!!! I don't know why!!! But I guess I'm starting to LIKE him. CRAP!!! I'm messed up!!! I mean… I LOVE 'J' and now I LIKE '_'!!! tsk tsk!!! How can I easily fall like this!!! deyM!!! I'd better learn how to handle my heart. Because I shouldn't fall for this guy! He's totally out of LEAGUE!!! And I'm sure he wouldn't fall for me coz hmmm I dunno! DANG!!!

I'd better end up this blog entry, coz I might spill up my little secret about who this guy is!!! ^_^

Another Unsent Letter

Dear _ O _ N,


I was surprised because you're gone in my facebook friend's list. I'm not sure what had happened with your account, did u cancelled your account? or perhaps it was just the facebook management fault. And then I've realized without facebook, without ym, without email, our communication is gone. I really felt our friendship is over. And I can't do anything on it. I don't exist in your world without those. Sometimes I think you were just a figment of my imagination, because you never really exist in reality...

I miss you so much ~ and it hurts! I still have to wait for months and worst years until I get there, to finally meet you. :(

Unexpected Sunday

I had a sunday class from 8am till 5pm. After our class, my bestfriendMean, Lara & I attended the Sunday Mass @ the SM mEgamall. Oh I almost forgot we were with Rein.



While waiting for the start of the mass, Lara & I was chatting quietly, and she opened up to me about Cris. So Cris and her friend was going out and texting blah blah. At first I was like oK! what's next? I thought I was fine, since it was almost a year ago when Cris and I went out together. But then, before I knew it I was talking to God and asking Him to pls heal the unseen wound in my heart. My prayer was answered right then and there, at the end of the mass Im feeling much better, I guess its a matter of letting go and letting God. And everything will fall into its right place. Anyway, the most unexpected thing that happened to me today was... I opened up my facebook to write something on my status message, and as I look at my usual featured friends, someone's missing, guess who? it was my Dear John. I'm not sure if he deleted me or he discontinued using his facebook, all I know was tears are flowing in my eyes. Ouch!!! What's the point of doing that?



I'm feeling so devastated. SERIOUSLY!!! Why is it happening to me?! and then I've realized if God is with me I need not to worry anything. From now on I will stop worrying about my love life. I know what I want, that's why I choose to wait Faithfully. God has a better plan for me, I may not know it for now. But it will unveil in the right time, and in the right place.

Fill in the blanks

Dear _ _ _ _,

I only have a few words to say and yet I don't know how to tell it to you, because my existence is long forgotten.

I just want you to know that I miss you, I miss you, I miss you and I miss you. And I'm still waiting for the day that our roads will finally cross.


Signed with love,
Kylie